Thursday, December 31, 2015

Oh 2015...

Oh 2015…
It would be so easy to write this year off as one of the worst of my life. I mean, being told your seemingly perfectly healthy son is dying is something that no parent should ever have to hear. This year should take the cake in terms of “most terrible things to ever happen to us”, right? However, if I think more deeply on it, 2015 was actually a year of miracles for us. 
Diagnosis or not, Little Buddy has been dying of Sanfilippo since the day he was born. The difference is, now we know. And knowing gives us power. It gives us the power to enjoy every moment and focus on making memories instead of wasting precious time dealing with misdiagnosis and searching for answers that most doctors wouldn't have been able to give us. Ignorance may be “bliss,” but it’s much better to know the monster you are up against. 
And receiving that diagnosis was a miracle within itself. If both kids hadn’t napped at the same time on that fateful day in February, if I hadn’t decided to check out the news on the Today Show, if I had brushed off the warning bells that Eliza's Story had triggered in me as "mommy paranoia"…if, if, if. So many “ifs”. If things hadn’t played out the exact way they did, Will still might not be correctly diagnosed.
But things did play out in that amazing way, and the miracles didn’t stop there. If I hadn’t been so touched by Love Ross & Meredith’s story when researching Sanfilippo Syndrome and connected with the Davis family, we wouldn’t be in the clinical trial. It was them I called crying when Little Buddy got his Type B diagnosis and it was them who immediately called their contacts in Minnesota. You don’t get diagnosed with a rare, incurable genetic disease on a Tuesday and get a call about getting the last spot in the first ever enzyme replacement clinical trial for said disease on Wednesday. That DOES NOT happen.
But it DID. 
And still the miracles continued. The way our family, friends, and even strangers took up our banner to spread awareness about and raise funding for Sanfilippo. The way we connected with other families who assured us that we were not alone. The way the community rallied around Little Buddy to make sure that every moment of his life was magical and full of JOY. A year that should have destroyed us has actually made us even stronger if I take the time to truly reflect on it. 
So yes, 2015 was definitely a challenging year, but a terrible year? I can’t say that. For us, it was truly a miraculous year that has given us KNOWLEDGE and HOPE. And I pray that 2016 is filled with MORE miracles, not just for Little Buddy, but for every other family suffering with this disease!
Do you believe in miracles? Because we do. And we want to wish all of you a New Year filled with them!


Friday, December 25, 2015

Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas

I will admit, even though we certainly believe it to be the "most wonderful time of the year", the first Christmas knowing Little Buddy's diagnosis wasn't the easiest.  Holidays tend to put things in perspective; you always think you'll be able to celebrate these special days with those you love, but after a devastating diagnosis, you know time is a luxury.  I would catch myself crying over little things; like how precious each Santa picture with both my kids in it actually is, or how happy I was that Little Buddy was still asking for age-appropriate presents, or how beautiful it was to here Little Buddy sing Christmas carols.  It was a hard balance to find the right amount of reverence for these special moments without slipping into the depression of "what ifs", but thankfully both Little Buddy and Little Sweetie's inherent joy in the season helped me stay in the moment, even if we had to travel the week of Christmas to start Phase II of Little Buddy's clinical trial.

And so, with the end of Thanksgiving, we jumped right into Christmas preparations!


These two are ready for Santa!  Both are asking for Paw Patrol toys!





Little Buddy did a great job on all his Christmas crafts at school!




Thanks to some dear friends, are tree was properly outfitted for the season of miracles as well!




And soon enough, the big day was on the horizon.  As was family tradition, the kids got a surprise visitor on Christmas Eve!

     


Santa's here!!!  Little Buddy went right up to greet him and lost no time in pointing out our decorations and again putting a request in for Paw Patrol!  Little Sweetie kept her distance for the first part of the visit...



     


...until Santa pulled some small Christmas Eve gifts out of his bag to distribute!



     

Presents make everything better.  Little Sweetie finally allowed the strange man with the weird beard to give her a hug!




Little Buddy also gave hugs...



     

...but wasn't so sure about allowing Santa to leave!





After Santa did leave, it was time to read some Christmas stories together as a family...




...and to put out all the goodies for Santa and his reindeer!  Night, night kiddos!


 And then it was Christmas!!!



"SANTA CAME!"




Obviously, Santa thought we had been pretty good this year!



     

Little Sister was excited for her new doll house!


     

And both kids played with the new Paw Patrol toys the rest of the day!



So, yes, even though we are still adjusting to our new normal, especially during the holidays, our Christmas was very merry, and one to be treasured!

Merry Christmas, to one and all!

LBM

Little Buddy's Momma

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Phase II Begins!

After a month off, we were ready to get back to Minnesota and begin treatments again for Phase II of the clinical trial!  I can't believe it's already been 6 months and we are at this stage!  This visit begins the next two years of our lives; two years we gladly give in hopes that Little Buddy gets the best chance at the best quality of life possible.  And we got a special treat this visit:  Aunt D came with us again!


"Wait, I'm on a plane again?  Feels like ages ago we did this!"




"Oh wait, it means I get my iPad again?  Ok, I remember what to do!"



     

Story time in the hotel before bed!




Time to head to the hospital and start our Phase II procedures!



     

This little trooper made it through his spinal tap after a long wait!  He is ready to be released and get a grilled cheese!




"I'm happy in my heart, Momma."  
After a day of procedures, there is still joy in his soul.  I love this boy.  




Hanging with Aunt D while waiting for that most-desired grilled cheese!



  


The next day was infusion day!  Thrilled to be back on this experimental drug and praying it is the miracle we need it to be!




Bumped up to first class for the flight home!  Ready to be back with our family to celebrate Christmas!


   
Please keep us in your prayers as we begin this next phase of the trial and our lives!

As always,

LBM

Little Buddy's Momma

Friday, December 18, 2015

The Davises are Coming!

What a wonderful surprise I found when I opened the door yesterday!  Our dear friends, the Davis family, surprised us with a visit!  They live in Florida with two Sanfilippo children and M is the sweet girl Little Buddy crushes on when we see her in Minnesota.  But this was the first time that I got to meet M's older brother, R!


Opening the door to find my main man, R!




Little Buddy was so surprised to see his Minnesota "people" at his house when he got off the bus!




Love birds are at it again!






The kids had so much fun together!  It's also amazing to see how Sanfilippo kids instantly "get" each other and play together very well.  There's always quite a mess, but so much fun!



     

Little Buddy instantly took to R as well.  These sweet, brave boys.  


It was only an evening, but what a beautiful evening it was.  There's no one that understands our situation better than other Sanfilippo families.  It's a kinship that can't be explained, but can only be felt on the deepest level.

Until next time,

LBM

Little Buddy's Momma

Friday, December 11, 2015

December 11

Christmas is almost here!!!

I can't believe that the holidays are almost upon us!  We are trying to stay in the moment this holiday season and to reflect on the blessings of this year and not the hardships.  Understanding that everyone moment we have together as family is a blessing is my Christmas wish this year.  

Our month is a little different this month!  Since Little Buddy's six month evaluation in the clinical trial was the endpoint of Phase I of the trial, we get a week of travel off this month until we begin Phase II.  I almost don't know what to do with myself with a glorious three straight weeks of no travel!

With that, it's been a low key month as Little Buddy's school semester winds down and we begin to gear up for the holidays.  


      

Little Buddy was excited to get some mail from his friend Mr. R!  It was pictures of Mr. R in his Army uniform for the Veterans Day program at Little Buddy's school, but they got lost in the mail.  Little Buddy still loved to receive them, though!  We miss you, Mr. R!





And here is some other excitement...he lost his second tooth and I got it! 



     

I tried to get a good picture of him missing his two front bottom teeth, but no luck!




 

As Little Buddy prepares for Christmas with his new Christmas Snoopy pajamas...    




...I've got one of his gifts ready to go!  Can't wait to give him this custom medal rack for all of his race medals!



Height and Weight
He's weighing in at just under 60 pounds and still right around 47 inches.
Personality
Our sweet happy boy is just that.  

Developmental Milestones
He strung a bead!  By himself!  This is truly a big deal as his fine motor skills have always been a little behind.  I'm hoping that this is proof that the clinical trial is working and that his skills will still gain!


So proud of you, little man!  Keep learning and growing!



Fun Tidbits
I love how Little Buddy finds joy in the little things we take for granted.  He love to watch for the mail and "help" me sweep the house.  Anything that makes him happy makes me happy too!

     
Easy ways to pass the day.


Hoping everyone else is having a stress free week as the holidays approach!

Good night, 

LBM

Little Buddy's Momma